Ohhhhhhh gawd.... I'm scared.... I'm so scared...

What is love? What does love feel like? I'm not sure anymore... The last time I thought I was in love, I was used and manipulated and brainwashed. I was hurt. I don't want to be hurt again...

He makes me smile though... I want to talk to him, cuddle with him, play video games and take naps with him. I don't want to kiss him though. It's too soon. My body isn't ready yet. I can talk to him like a normal person. I can rant and rave and he would just listen. He understands that I was hurt. He understood that my last relationship was horrible and knew I needed to get out of it....

Make these feelings go away. I don't want to feel them, not yet at least...