Name Changes

So, I'm thinking of re-titling my blog and changing the url soon. It believe it's finally time for a change and what better way than to change stuff and make it fitting for the present.

Well Fuck...

So after going a nice long streak of not having any bad nights, I have a fucking NIGHTMARE with him in it.

It started out with a bad day at work, blah blah, then I went home and I lived in this strange house and Cory and he were there. Cory left to somewhere else in the house to do something and left me and him alone in a room. Then he started just coming and hanging over me and would force himself upon me. I started freaking out and ran in the house to get away. He followed me and I kept running and screaming for help. I don't know where Cory went, but he was no longer there. I was trapped. I was screaming and crying and I fell to the ground. He got ontop of me and would press himself against me and I just tried to claw my way from under him and I was just panicking and crying and screaming to the top of my lungs and I was trapped. There was no escape what's so ever.

I woke up and just had the worse morning I could ever have possible.

I just....

I don't know...

When the Day Met the Night

So this past weekend was soooo fun! I got to hang out with Cory and he got to meet Ren and he's is Ren approved!!!!

They were in robotics before together and so they knew each other a bit before hand.

OH! I asked Ren was his aura colour was and she said he was a blue. Blue auras was pleasing people to be around. You hang out with them and you just feel calm and you just feel homey around them. She also said that blue and yellow auras go very well together which makes me happy and gives me some hope.

~Gyaaaaaaa!~

Then Ren and I convinced Cory to get a tumblr as well because Ren was showing me how to code and change my theme on there (which looks FABULOUS!!!!) and Cory just loved the coding.

I'm just all gyaa~!

hguasih;dzuifagd (finger spasm)

He's so nice and respectful to me... He literally is all "What's ok and what's not ok to do?" "If there's anything wrong, just tell me, ok?"and is just dskfhakjd. So much communication. TuT I love it and I just.. appreciate him soooooo much (I don't want to say love yet because I don't think I'm ready for that yet...) Yea!

The Only Exception

So... Friday after school, Cory dropped me off at my mum's work. Before I got out of his truck,  he wanted a kiss. So I offered him the top of my head because that's what he normally does. But he said no and grabbed my face and kissed me on the lips. I was shocked...

I went to work and forgot about it because we got busy. I thought he was upset with me, but rather he was upset about himself because he thought he was going too fast. But we're all good now. Gonna hang out with him tomorrow. <3

Game Club Almost Success but Otherwise Great Things!

So, first order of business, I'm no longer single. I'm dating a fantastic guy named Cory and I'm very happy. He respects me and my friends and cares for me so much. He also compliments me a lot more than what I'm used to and has yet to say anything is my fault or that my flaws are... huge things that are bothersome. Thursday was two weeks... This is exciting...

Now, today was the first day of Game Club and our teacher sponsor talked to both me and him about being president, and he wanted us both to be presidents so we agreed on that. But during the "lecture", he was standing very close to me. He also said my name in discussion about bouncers.... It was strange. I tried to block it out of my head and just focus on the club since we had a lot of people sign up and show up to this meeting. We're suppose to have an officials meeting on Wednesday.

But yea. Still having some problems with a friend...

But yea...

WHEN I CAN'T ART

Ok, so that post I was gonna type up, I never got to it because ART but I will hopefully type it? Soory (especially to you Kristin!)